NaPoWriMo 2018 : Day 24 – I Will Always Remember You

Today’s craft resource is a long-ish essay by Hyejung Kook regarding how poetry can be created from absence, or in the wake of loss, and how awareness of mortality drives a desire to produce art, people, poems.

Today, we’d like to challenge you to write an elegy – a poem typically written in honor or memory of someone dead. But we’d like to challenge you to write an elegy that has a hopefulness to it. Need inspiration? You might look at W.H. Auden’s elegy for Yeats, which ends on a note suggesting that the great poet’s work will live on, inspiring others in years to come. Or perhaps this elegy by Mary Jo Bang, where the sadness is shot through with a sense of forgiveness on both sides

The elegy I’ve written is for a friend who I lost 2 years ago. She was just 32. I met her a month before she went on her journey and I never dreamed that it was the last time we’d meet. But it was. And all I had left were messages and a promise we made, to meet again. I think of her often, at times more than I think of my mother who was my soul, my life. For in death, she answered all those questions that I had been carrying in my heart for the last ten years. “Why had it happened?”, “Why did my mother have to go so young?”, “Were the facilities not good enough?”, “Had the doctors made a mistake?”, “Had we not done enough?”

But she had had it all and yet she had gone too…and she had taken all my questions along with her. Peace is what she gave me, when she left.


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It’s two years since you’ve been gone,

And with you those questions that in my heart I had borne

Seems like just the other day…

Twelve since, She went away-

And that too… seems like, only yesterday.

I want to say, “I’m sorry.” I walked away,

Didn’t think you’d understand, so I didn’t say…

You wanted to know, why I hadn’t been in touch,

She left and with her, my soul. I had nothing to give. You had it all; that’s the reason, pretty much

I had to go, learn to live, without a crutch.

I’m so sorry, I can’t stop thinking,

I didn’t see it coming-

the last time we met,

when I promised to never let…

go again. But you left. Like, a promise, is all you wished to get…

I want to say, “Thank you” for the gift-

you smiled, you laughed, you ended an unspoken rift…

And when you went… a little too early,

You took with you, the guilt, the pain and the misery,

that for ten years, I, in my heart did carry…

Thank you for the Peace,

For taking the agony, that I thought would never cease,

Death sees not beauty or age, neither goodness nor love,

I see you sometimes – a white dove,

And you’re not alone. I see you, with her, looking down… from above.

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34 responses to “NaPoWriMo 2018 : Day 24 – I Will Always Remember You”

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  2. Carly Avatar

    I love the way you write and your messages of hope and God’s commitment towards us. 😊

    1. Smitha V Avatar

      Thank you so much Carly for such lovely words. Life is easier only when we have hope and faith in God. Welcome to my blog😊

      1. Carly Avatar

        Very true! 🙂 Thank you.

  3. Sangbad Avatar

    Hey hi…this poem has left me speechless…only thus clap clap clap…can I present a hug?

    1. Smitha V Avatar

      Hi Sangbad…got it🙂…thank you so much. Was thinking of the elegy you wrote too. Its outstanding. Just sticks on. I guess pain brings out the best in us.

      1. Sangbad Avatar

        Yeah pain brings out the best I think…the poem also sticks with me because it had just happened…

        1. Smitha V Avatar

          You mean the writing just happened?

          1. Sangbad Avatar

            Yeah… I read it after the comments starts pouring in… before that I never got what I had wrote

          2. Smitha V Avatar

            Wow! Thats something. Maybe you’ve become numb to the pain.

          3. Sangbad Avatar

            Maybe… I am one of those who doesn’t hold a single bit of memory with his father…

          4. Smitha V Avatar

            I’m sorry to hear Sangbad but memory fades and you were young so…tc

  4. viewsofpreethib Avatar

    Your welcome Smitha 😊 you have done justice to both indeed😊 ❤️

    1. Smitha V Avatar

      Thanks Preethi. Means a lot to me🙂

  5. viewsofpreethib Avatar

    1st A looonnnngggg Tight Hug to you Smitha… <3
    Amazing write… I can see how difficult it is been for you to pen this down, but you have done it beautifully Smitha giving such honor to both of them…
    Love and hugs <3

    1. Smitha V Avatar

      Thank you Preethi🙂. It was and I’m thankful for your understanding. I wanted to do justice to both and your comment helps me believe its been done. Thank you for the hug❤ xxx

  6. Dahlia Avatar

    A poignant and deep piece. Too choked up to say any more

    1. Smitha V Avatar

      I understand…🙂. Sometimes less speaks volumes. Thanks Dahlia.❤

  7. samba2017 Avatar

    Thanks for sharing this raw and beautiful piece…

    1. Smitha V Avatar

      Thank you for reading it…It means a lot.

  8. Nirmala Varrier Avatar

    Dear Smitha, I am very late to the party, but I have just started with the first prompt- Do have a peek if you like : https://ardramaamsandhyakal.blogspot.in/2018/04/napowrimo-2018.html. My blogger id is Ardra Vamshi . I used to blog fairly regularly once upon a time. Let me use this project to start blogging again.

    I enjoyed reading your posts and shall keep visiting.

    Warm regards

    1. Smitha V Avatar

      Better late than never😊. Just checked it. Lovely poem. Thank you for visiting my blog. Strangely I couldn’t find the follow button for yours. Welcome back to wordpress.😊

      1. Nirmala Sasi Varier Avatar

        Thank you Smitha. Have sent you a friend request on FB too.:-) Meanwhile : http://ardramaamsandhyakal.blogspot.in/2018/04/napowrimo-prompt-24_24.html

        1. Nirmala Sasi Varier Avatar

          Smitha, I just checked, there is a Follow button just below the little pictures of followers on the right side of the page. would be delighted if you join… 🙂

          1. Smitha V Avatar

            Will check on the laptop later. Cant see it on the mobile

        2. Smitha V Avatar

          I have accepted:). Have read the poem you’ve sent too. Thanks for sharing it. Would love to read your comments on mine too…

          1. Nirmala Sasi Varier Avatar

            Smitha, I have been on a readathon of your posts and hence didn’t actually stop to comment. I like your choice of words, the imagery- and when some of the prompts were difficult for me to interpret, reading your poems have helped to understand how to approach each. In this poem that tinge of regret is so tangible- and yet the last lines is such a solace. Elegies are mostly about if only’s and your poem kind of softens the edge to it. Thank you so much…

          2. Smitha V Avatar

            Thank you so much. Your comment means a lot to me. And I’m humbled because you write awfully well yourself. I hope I’m not asking for too much but would love to know what you think about a post when you read it, even if it’s just a line.
            You explained the poem so well- regret and solace it is! Thank you again so much for your comment. XXX

  9. Feelings and Freedom Avatar

    This is such an emotional piece Smitha and you presented it so well. It’s really disheartening to know that your friend left this earth so early in her age but as they say, God also needs loving souls. Sorry to hear about your mother too. But I know you are a strong woman.

    1. Smitha V Avatar

      Thanks Vandana ❤. Writing it was easy because its been on my mind yet it took a toll on me because of what it involved. Coincidently I was 32 when I lost my mother and my friend was 32 when I lost her. Yes, God does need loving souls…they were both beautiful people in looks and in person. Guess, life teaches you to be strong…

    2. Smitha V Avatar

      Thanks Vandana for being a good friend❤. Writing it was easy because its been on my mind yet it took a toll on me because of what it involved. Coincidently I was 32 when I lost my mother and my friend was 32 when I lost her. Yes, God does need loving souls…they were both beautiful people in looks and in person. Guess, life teaches you to be strong…

      1. Feelings and Freedom Avatar

        I cannot share your pain but yes, life teaches you in tough ways..

        1. Smitha V Avatar

          Yes it does Vandana. I’m so glad we connected.

          1. Feelings and Freedom Avatar

            🤗🤗🤗

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