Last evening after we had finished watching television and had turned off the lights, I thought of dad again and my heart sank. I miss him. I miss speaking to him. Not that he did say much during the last two months prior to his passing away, yet there was that daily call I made to check in on him and tell him to hold on until I got him home. With the number of cases increasing in Mumbai, I couldn’t get him here. And he couldn’t wait. It hurts when I think of it. Last night, the tears rolled again for a lot of reasons and despite the fact that we completed all the rituals, I still cannot believe that he’s gone. Dad was cremated and his ashes put into a flowing river as per the customs. I did it myself. Yet my brain refuses to accept it…maybe because there was no proper ‘Goodbye.’ But how many people actually say, ‘Goodbye?’ I don’t know. And if they do, does it make it any easier?
As I lay down on my bed and thought of everything that had happened leading up to the last moment, the words of the hymn, ‘One day at a time, Sweet Jesus,’ came back to me. It’s a hymn I sang when I was in Grade 5 or 6 in school. I hadn’t sung it since then. But the words came flooding at night and I lulled myself to sleep.
I have attached the link to the hymn below. If you’ve already heard it, you know what I am talking about. If you’ve not and you’re at a point in life when you’re feeling low, do listen to it. This hymn spoke to me last night. It gave me hope, faith and strength when I needed it. And I had to share it. Let me know if there’s any song that you listen to when you are feeling low and that makes you feel better. If you have such a song or a passage from a book, do share it in the comments below. Maybe it will help me too.
To watch “ONE DAY AT A TIME, SWEET JESUS (LYNDA RANDLE) + LYRICS” click on the link below https://youtu.be/tkkDbsxctn8
P.S. I love every word of this song/hymn.
Lyrics of the first verse are:
One day at a time, Sweet Jesus
That’s all I’m asking of you
Give me the strength to do everyday
What I have to do
Yesterday’s gone, Sweet Jesus
And tomorrow may never be mine
Help me today, show me the way
One day at a time
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