I’m confused

Its all so fresh- your words, your voice

Wasn’t it only yesterday –

You spoke of your haircut,

Of your phone, of how you didn’t like either?

Wasn’t it only yesterday –

You spoke of your fear

Of the pain

That you wouldn’t make it through?

Yet we went ahead

Why?

Was it I who asked you to

Or was it you?

Was it the Doctors who coaxed you

or was it me?

It’s all so blurred now

I’m confused-

They’re not telling

And you’re not here

To ask

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10 responses to “I’m confused”

  1. Gopalasamudram Subramanian Avatar

    At this moment I am unable to articulate and post an appropriate comment. I know the feeling you expressed in the poem, one of anguish and confusion atf the departure of a loved one. I can only echo the words of Saul Bellow that you have posted. Maybe you can find solace in the words of Robert Frost ‘In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on’.

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  2. boundlessblessingsblog Avatar

    A great tribute to your father, Smitha. A beautiful poem penned and may his Soul Rest in Peace. You take care and God give you enough strength.

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    1. Smitha V Avatar

      Thank you Kamal for your prayers and warm words🙏

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      1. boundlessblessingsblog Avatar

        You are always welcome dear Smitha can understand the pain of losing a father but he is always there with you in spirit. 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

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        1. Smitha V Avatar

          Kamal your words are always a source of comfort. Thank you so much.🙏

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          1. boundlessblessingsblog Avatar

            You are always welcome dear Smitha. Love and light to you.

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  3. Infinite Living Avatar

    Prayers for strength and peace for you 🙏

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    1. Smitha V Avatar

      🙏thanks Pragalbha

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  4. sienablue Avatar

    Oh my dear, I am so very sorry. You will miss him every day of your life. May love surround you, you have been through such an ordeal these past few months.

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    1. Smitha V Avatar

      Thank you Jo for your warm words. Its been tough. Just praying for strength. I know dad would want me to be strong for my girls.

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