I See You On My Darkest Nights

tulips-

My heart is heavy,

The air is still, in it the scent of the English ivy.

I cannot sleep, my mind’s a frenzy,

I know not what ‘morrow shall bring,

In the dark recesses, lies a secret untold,

Threatening to break free, the past unfold,

I feel a flutter, a brewing unease,

I toss, I turn, I freeze.

Not a sign of life or calming breeze,

Weariness creeps, it stifles, I cannot breathe,

A drunken stupor , trance. ‘Peace’- must I lease?

My eye-lids close, my troubles cease…

 

Sweeping fields before me lie; tulips- violet, burgundy, cream and white,

Amidst them, yellow silks, red bindi, your face soft; a heavenly sight

Stray tendrils, caress your cheek; calm me down; gentle sea-breeze in the night,

Kohl lined ebony eyes smile, “Its going to be alright.”

Stay! Don’t leave… my eyes shut tight

Alas! it’s gone…takes you too… the morning light

Golden rays echo your words; a bright new morn,

Blue skies, green grass, the flowers and birds; my woes begone,

A dreamer I ne’er was before, but now I am,

E’er since you’ve been gone.

Dreams bring you to life-

But… only on nights when my mind is in strife.

Winner of the Asian Literary Society Poetry Contest#12, 12052018

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21 responses to “I See You On My Darkest Nights”

  1. Tidbits Avatar

    this was touching … loved your words !!

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    1. Smitha V Avatar

      Thank you so much. I’m glad it made you feel that way.

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      1. Tidbits Avatar

        you’re welcome Smitha … will see more of you here .. have a good day 🙂

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        1. Smitha V Avatar

          You too…have a wonderful week ahead😊

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          1. Tidbits Avatar

            thanks 🙂

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  2. thewritewomanblog Avatar

    Your poem evoked a few drops of tears that I noticed only at the very end. I am not sure what to say, but I understand or do I? May be I just cannot imagine how deep it can be but those lines say them loud and clear. I know not words that can help make you feel better but just glad that she is alive in your mind.

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    1. thewritewomanblog Avatar

      Those are lines from the heart, a dedication to your beautiful dreams. Congratulations, Smitha. Hugs!

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      1. Smitha V Avatar

        Thank you so much Pranitha. Another one from the depths of the heart. Hugs my dear friend.

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    2. Smitha V Avatar

      All I can say is my words were understood perfectly. ALS did not choose a winner for this topic because there was a tie and the poem was given the certificate of Excellence and it was chosen on Mother’s Day. What a coincidence don’t you think. Pranitha, you are a very good judge of poetry, even if you don’t write as much poetry…And yes, she is totally alive in my mind. At the time of this poetry, I had had enough of her being in my mind and wished so much she’d come out:)

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      1. thewritewomanblog Avatar

        That’s wonderful but very well deserved. Like I said, I am not sure I can comprehend the depths of your loss but i could judge as much from the poem

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        1. Smitha V Avatar

          I understand what you mean…yet I find your words comforting.

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  3. robbiesinspiration Avatar

    Very strong emotions depicted here, Smitha. Well done.

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    1. Smitha V Avatar

      Thank you so much Robbie. And just saw you shared it too. Double thank you for that. XOXO

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  4. Moushmi Radhanpara Avatar

    Loved it Smitha, loved how your portrayed the feelings.

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    1. Smitha V Avatar

      Thank you so much Moushmi. It came straight from the heart 🙂

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  5. Ben Aqiba Avatar

    Hi Smitha,

    you are better and better from post to post. Dream is something wonderful ,and without dreams we will not be able to believe in reality too ! Thank you

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    1. Smitha V Avatar

      Hi Ben,
      Thanks so much. Your comments always encourage me. True, dreams help us achieve. ⚘

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  6. Andrea Stephenson Avatar

    Beautiful Smitha, I love the title and the sentiments of longing and comfort.

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    1. Smitha V Avatar

      Thank you so much Andrea. Its actually really nice that you noticed the title because I oscillated between this and the title given for the competition – ‘ my colorful dream.’

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      1. Andrea Stephenson Avatar

        I much prefer yours!

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        1. Smitha V Avatar

          ❤again it means a lot. Thank you.

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